Scribbled

I hope no one reads this............


I just want to open up and shout....I really really want to....Why me?....

A day hasn't passed since last so many year where I have not felt this excruciating pain in the heart.....but there was/is no audience and there can not be.....

Friends think I am a fool....I might be...and it's not there fault either...it's such a complex emotion.....even I can not make them understand it....

and my dear family.....they had been so naive about it all the time...


Despite all this...one solace was there...that it can end with in a matter of seconds...but even that now seems more like a distant dream than reality....